Tuesday, September 27, 2005

This is just to say...

... that I really hate what pregnancy is doing to my body.

I never had a perfect body, but it was a body that I'd learned how to dress and keep fit and with which I'd made peace. This new and nauseated body is awful. Swollen. Rearranged. Unrecognizable to me.

I can't help thinking that I now have a belly like my father's.

I can't help marveling at women who claim they looove being pregnant. Or at any woman who has been pregnant more than once.


At 7:30 PM, Blogger jo(e) said...

I'm one of those women who loved being pregnant. I used to stand naked in the mirror and admire myself.

But I've had friends who felt much more like you do. And the good thing is -- it doesn't last forever. Once the baby is born, your body will go back to being the body you remember.

At 9:39 AM, Anonymous Jeannette said...

Ha! AS IF!! Three months later, and I'm still sportin' the deflated balloon look.

I hear you, yellocello. I hated being pregnant. It was miserable, and I even had an easy time of it (except for commuting 85 mi to grad school, teaching, and moving across the country, but physically not too bothered).

Go ahead and buy the larger size, prematernity clothes as your body inflates. You'll need them after the baby is born. Even if you breastfeed!

In fact, I was totally cheap with the whole clothes thing, because I was so depressed about being able to wear things for a limited time. But, dude, it is not the time to be cheap. I felt like my body was shattered (and I have pretty good self-image); the least you can do is pep up the external adornment. (Old Navy maternity ROCKS!!!!!!!)

And the baby really is so worth it in the end! Hang in there!

At 1:00 PM, Blogger MJ said...

I was the same way until I REALLY started showing and it became very obvious that I'm actually carrying something other than too many Big Macs in there. :-) I still don't claim to looooove being pregnant; it's just downright weird to have somebody else's body parts lodging themselves under your ribs and stuff like that. Even worse, people expect you to act all girly and they ask you questions you'd think that any normal, civilized person would know better than to ask anybody but their closest friends, such as "Are you planning to breastfeed?" (yeah, I really WANT my male co-workers carrying that image around, but thanks for asking, dude) and "Are you going to keep working?" (thank you for asking that question while standing in the hallway outside my boss's office, when I haven't actually discussed this topic with him yet).

But yeah, the clothes thing is pretty annoying. Just now the weather is changing, and I can't wear any of my favorite fall clothes, but I don't want to buy any new ones that I won't be able to wear next year. Maybe I should just get a big sweater and wear it over everything.


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